Muddled thoughts of a Gemini

I know I haven’t been here in a while and, honestly, I can’t say why. The days are just flying by and the hours in each seem to have gotten shorter.

I’ve been working on the plot of my new story and still have April 1st as my goal to start writing it. That’s something I’ve learned from my previous work – a simple yet rounded bit of plotting works well for me. I’m that cross between plotter and pantser. And April 1st is when I hope to put plotting aside and start a month of pounding out some pantser pages.

Meanwhile, we’ve been attending a variety of homeschooling activities – which, not surprisingly pick up as the weather gets less frigid. We’ve watched holocaust movies and discussed World War II. We’ve watched David Copperfield and Oliver Twist, and turned them into lessons about 19th Century England. I’ve finally learned how to turn a simple event into an opportunity for learning and realize that every day life has more lessons in it than anything we could possibly plan.

Take the shelter, for instance. The lessons there are immeasurable. Daughter is learning so much from volunteering – not only about compassion and responsibility, but also about human strengths and weaknesses. She’s learning, sadly, that more often than not, when people see something curious, they stand back and leave it for someone else to investigate or fix. Even when stepping in can save a life. Or possibly save a life. I guess we’ll never know for sure.

We lost two newborn kittens last night. That’s what this is all about. The mother rejected them and everyone, apparently, thought it was just an anomaly… a mother cat not feeding her babies. Surely, they thought, it’s just at this moment she’s not doing so. Sadly, that just wasn’t the case and no matter what we did during our shift… it was simply too late.

Mother Nature is a cruel, cruel bitch at times but never more so than when an innocent is made to suffer. I don’t know that we could have done anything to save these kittens, in fact, on many levels I know we couldn’t have. Still…  and maybe this is partly the writer in me asking… but I’ll always wonder, ‘what if’.

8 Responses to Muddled thoughts of a Gemini

  • Sorry to hear about the kitties, Debbie. So sad.

    Glad your plotting and the homeschooling are going well. Let us know if you make your April 1 deadline.

  • That’s so sad Debbie. I remember when our dog had puppies, there was one baby in each litter that wandered away from the others and died. Zoe was a very good mother but both times she let one of her babies wander away. I guess it’s natural selection or some such nonsense, but it’s still sad. Poor kitties.

  • Debbie, I can imagine how sad you and others felt about the kittens. It would be interesting to know the reason why mothering did not take place.
    It is so hard to stick to writing deadlines. Sometimes I have a good day or even week, and then other times I do almost nothing or hate what I’ve produced. Real life has a way of drawing us away, but then dedication to family also makes our writing better.

  • Linda,
    Thank you. It is sad. 🙁
    As for the April 1st deadline… so far so good!! I’m excited about getting into the nitty-gritty of this story. I will keep you posted!


  • Beth,
    The puppy just wandered away? Nature is a very strange thing, isn’t it? And I know nature determines who can survive and who can’t, but that’s without intervention. We can do so much now to help those little lives… that’s how it was for my second cat – Slinky. I found her at just one month old and only four ounces! Her mother had abandoned her, apparently because she was that sick. Well, fluids, antibiotics, a lot of TLC and 13 years later, she lead the healthiest life of all my pets. You just never know.

  • Kathleen,
    I think the mothering didn’t take place because the mama cat is ill. She’s extremely anemic and probably unable to care for them. And maybe since she was ill, they were born ill and never would have survived even with her attention. I don’t know. Life can be so cruel sometimes.
    About the writing, I have the same issue as you. Days can pass where the words just flow and then days will come without any words at all… or the words there suck. lol. In the end, though, as long as the words get down on the page, we’ll have something to polish and play with, yes? 🙂

  • I am also sorry about those kittens
    🙁 🙁 🙁 🙁 🙁

  • Thanks, dilanim. It was a very sad thing. Fortunately, since then, we’ve had several litters born and all were healthy. Many have already found homes but there are still more waiting their turn…


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